3 weeks...

It passed 3 weeks to meet for him, but I can't still forget him. 

Shortly I can forget him when I do work, but memories about him came crowding into my mind when it comes like this holiday...

Actually I thought time passed more, but lately only 3 weeks.

I don't still understand about myself... I did regretful behavior, why I am doing....  

Even if he had same mind with me, I would be same behavior. Because I thought that is thing for him...

In fact, I had to come back home ahead of time cause my puppy was sick, my elder brother was tough taking care of Mir.

Also I might go to America after 1 years or 2 years as same reason. 

Mir is my family, I'm raising him for 13 years, so he is like my son or my younger brother.

So I can't keep him waiting after 1 years or 2 years...

Of course I overdid and I do much thinking, if he likes me, I thought cruel act keeping him waiting. 

He can come this country, but it can't continuously do.

So I left saving gift and a letter for him.

If the reason living this country disappeared, would I do same behavior?

No, if I am free situations, I thought I give my phone number to him. 

At once I can't leave this country cause I am careful person, I will go to America to prepare necessary somethings.

If Mir is health condition, of course I can leave. But he won't endure a long distance flight.

There is a saying which fate is made by choice, but I missed the chance.

Nevertheless I still miss him. I missed this opportunity, but if I meet him again, then I will have a courage to him.

Now I am praying to God for Mir's health and about that... Please let me just meet him after... 

And lately I'd like to get affection for someone. I wish I am happy...!!!